A Recollection

On that cloudy day, flashes the image of you

A vision of pure and innocent love

Fill in everything with emotions

Empty

Got up from the other side of the bed. Immediately, everything around seems blunt and pointless.

Stared out blankly in the dusty window, the streets looked narrower than it used to be.

Every single thing around mr is in a grey or pitch black shade. I looked up and the sky seems no less than brighter than its ashen dusk.

Torn Up

A flicker from an outside post made her thoughts back into her reality.

But whenever she looks through the window pane, the painful gust of lonely reality hits her hard.

The musing never ended, it is on the contrary, make every single part of her body embrace the unchangeable truth

The Capulets, the Montagues and their Neverending Yet Dubious Feud

Feud. It all started with the raging quarrel between two of the well-known and powerful families in Verona during that time. Neither the Prince, nor the religious people could reconcile them. But, it is only by the death of their children they’ve realized that the low-rate and shabby war between them must be put to an end.

Adieu!

It’s then and only then, reality kicked in to my mind. The faces, the places, the people and all the things I used to see and feel is definitely gone and not here anymore. The days and the nights of my life is way different now.

I looked to my left and to my right and everything seems just so surreal and cloudy now. Well, it is just then I realized that here’s my new real world now. It is just me with myself and the memories I’ve collected and treasured for the last several days or months or even years of my life. Never had I thought that things such as this one must’ve come to an end to the most unexpected point and time of my life.

I’m not regretful though I’m just shocked that even if I know for a fact that every single thing will come to it’s own curtain call. This seems to be the most sudden of them all. Well, what can I or you or whoever do? Life has its own way of saying that, “Okay, so that ends your turn in that moment. The next is coming and you better wait and see for it.”

Surely, things are just way too unpredictable in our life. There are people who will definitely come and go but there are some who’ll stay with you no matter what.

So basically, here’s where nostalgia pops in. Suddenly there’s an illusion of flashbacks through my memories, yes just like how the films or the dramas on the television is showing them. Everything that had happened to me to past few days, months, years and seconds of my life. Some may be too bad and are worth deleting at the back of my mind, but I definitely wont’t prefer that option besides I am me because of those, I’ll just always keep in mind what I’ve learned through those not-so-good memories or should I say lessons I’ve got. Either ways, it is after all part of me and my life and where I am now. Though of course, majority of my wayback memoirs are the chapters of my life wherein I laugh my ass off so hard, I became spontaneously happy, and deadly hell living the moment. In short, they are just unforgettable.

Oh! How reminiscing ruin my laughing-at-the-moment mood. I’m starting to feel that my eyes are becoming watery because of what I’m seeing on my mind. I guess, I should end my too much blabbering here.

Surely, the past has been long over in my life now. Better yet, I’ve got to face the reality that I have to bade my goodbye to somethings and wave my hello greeting to what the future well, let’s settle with what present will bring me in my new kind of life.

A Ballad for the Beloved

Through your eyes I saw serenity and hope

Through those smiles I’ve felt true and immeasurable happiness

In a span of not-so-long-ago

But then,

Time and distance is something I cannot control myself.

I’ve lived through thousands and millions of years yet no matter what it’ll never work out.

Everything I’ve heard of you just makes this feeling stronger.

I may not be with you but eternally, I always think that we were made for each other.

The night is yours

The day is mine.

Together we build the day.

The day that seems to be the infinite sign that

I will never leave your side, no matter what.

I have loved you ever since.

Nothing will ever challenge that.

Your timidness, the way you shine so brightly makes it more magical.

Just a moment of glimpse from you to me, will be enough for me to wait for another rounds of years

to make that eclipse happen again.

To you my dearly Luna,

I can wait years and years and years.

Just for you,

to you my Beloved.

Cluttered

Long pause.

A string of unstable yet endless breathing.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Hush.

An elsewhere risk of fate,

and an over and over anticipation

of should haves and could bes.

Yet, no matter what

everything is in disarray.

Far away,

there’s no other entree.

In deep solitude

yet no matter what

everything seems pointless and dull.

An endpoint to a long way.

Everything’s inexplicably in an uproar.

Sorry

This will be the last time I will say it.
I don’t know, maybe I’m just tired doing it over and over again.
No matter what I do,
You always do the same thing.

Perhaps, you can live with that,
A world without me.
And so do I.

I’m tired of being under someone else’s erratic control.
Somehow, I wanted to find my own self.

And I’m starting of with doing a total re-run in my life.
Without you and all your made up hypocrisy.

Regrets are done cause now,
I’m living my own extravagant life.

Gossip…

Chattery thoughts and restless tongues

Are on it once again,

another cycle of lies and wordy surrealisms.

They heard of it, only they ignored it.

Only the doubts and uncertainties will remain.

It pleases them, the unending blabbering of nonsensical

yet amusing truth for their ears.

Spectrum

Suddenly everything is in slow-mo when you’re around.

My heart is inexplicably beating so fast.

Every one is nothing,

Only you and your precious smiles mattered to me.

The lights,

the colors,

everything changes.

My world’s backdrop

is radiant and jumpy.

Just a one in a million phenomenon to my heart.