It’s then and only then, reality kicked in to my mind. The faces, the places, the people and all the things I used to see and feel is definitely gone and not here anymore. The days and the nights of my life is way different now.
I looked to my left and to my right and everything seems just so surreal and cloudy now. Well, it is just then I realized that here’s my new real world now. It is just me with myself and the memories I’ve collected and treasured for the last several days or months or even years of my life. Never had I thought that things such as this one must’ve come to an end to the most unexpected point and time of my life.
I’m not regretful though I’m just shocked that even if I know for a fact that every single thing will come to it’s own curtain call. This seems to be the most sudden of them all. Well, what can I or you or whoever do? Life has its own way of saying that, “Okay, so that ends your turn in that moment. The next is coming and you better wait and see for it.”
Surely, things are just way too unpredictable in our life. There are people who will definitely come and go but there are some who’ll stay with you no matter what.
So basically, here’s where nostalgia pops in. Suddenly there’s an illusion of flashbacks through my memories, yes just like how the films or the dramas on the television is showing them. Everything that had happened to me to past few days, months, years and seconds of my life. Some may be too bad and are worth deleting at the back of my mind, but I definitely wont’t prefer that option besides I am me because of those, I’ll just always keep in mind what I’ve learned through those not-so-good memories or should I say lessons I’ve got. Either ways, it is after all part of me and my life and where I am now. Though of course, majority of my wayback memoirs are the chapters of my life wherein I laugh my ass off so hard, I became spontaneously happy, and deadly hell living the moment. In short, they are just unforgettable.
Oh! How reminiscing ruin my laughing-at-the-moment mood. I’m starting to feel that my eyes are becoming watery because of what I’m seeing on my mind. I guess, I should end my too much blabbering here.
Surely, the past has been long over in my life now. Better yet, I’ve got to face the reality that I have to bade my goodbye to somethings and wave my hello greeting to what the future well, let’s settle with what present will bring me in my new kind of life.